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It hurts when people post bad about my faith. It doesn’t hurt me, but it will hurt them. I don’t take it personal but it hurts to know that they don’t know God.

God, Jesus, the holy spirit is real. I have felt the Holy Spirit inside of my heart. I have felt God’s love when I needed it. I have heard his voice as a thought in my head when I asked for an answer to a problem. My mother has seen my guardian angel, my aunt has seen hers. And so have many other people. My pastor gave up his $5.63 to a stranger at the store and right after that his bank account has $500.63. How can you explain that?

A woman was also at another store and she felt God telling her to go talk to this one woman who she had never seen before. So she did and gave her a bible and the lady told her she was about to go home and kill herself if she didn’t talk to her.

I was crying over my Nana who died when I was 13. I just got her old bible from her daughter and I asked God for help to stop crying or understand why I was crying 6 years later. So I randomly opened the bible and stopped at the page where I heard God’s voice tell me to and it was her favorite verse. Her number one favorite bible verse and I turned to it. I heard her speak of this verse all the time and I wished I could find it in the bible. Then I do when I ask God to guide my hand?

Why would millions of people lie about feeling God around them? It’s not a lie. Others are too stubborn to believe it. I just wish they would try. Put all their opinions and judgement aside and consider that he could be real at least. Ask him if he can show you anything to see if he’s real. Someone to give you help.

Think of it logically like this: You may say to consider that God isn’t real, but there has been proof of my own eyes that he is. For you, you won’t consider that he is because you have no proof. We aren’t being hypocritical in saying that we won’t believe anything else. We already got our proof. Just because we can’t explain the feeling tugging at our heart, or speaking in tongues, or God sending you someone or an opportunity just when you need it doesn’t mean there is no proof. It’s no coincidence or something we made up in our minds. There are too many people out there who believe this for it to be one big lie.

It’s not something that only happened years ago. Like the holocaust. Anyone who believe it to be a lie, has to be joking…. There is proof, from the documents and the pictures and the words from the mouths of those who remember it. People are not going through that today but the families and people who remember still feel the pain. They still feel it and believe in it because it happened. You cannot look around and see that it happened physically. 

The same thing is for the Christianity. All of those events happened years ago. There are documents on it, THE BIBLE, and people who still feel God’s love and The Holy Spirit today. But because it’s been so long and it has to do with personal opinions, and how you live your life, people refuse to believe it. They will believe in supernatural beings like demons and ghosts, but they refuse to believe in the supernatural GOOD God. Even those who have never seen demons believe because of the words out of peoples’ mouths, but they will not believe The Way, The Truth, and The Life.

I honestly don’t get it. Why don’t you believe in something as amazing as God’s love? Its not that you just don’t believe it. You just don’t want to change your life. Being a Christian doesn’t mean you have to stop doing everything you used to. You stop doing everything you used to, because being a Christian and knowing God is so much better than everything else. I can vouch for that.

I never thought that on my birthday you would personally call and wish me a happy birthday. Okay I did. But I wish you would stop caring about me so much. It’s so hard to move on when I have to hear your voice and think of you. I care so much about what happens to you. You have always left decisions up to me. And up until now I have been able to carry them out. 

You noticed that I am in Akron and doing things with my family and new friends and keeping busy. And you know I do it to get over you. You know I need something else preoccupying my mind at all times. It seems as if I cannot stay away and other times it has been easy. I need you to please stop talking to me. Leave me alone if you possibly can until I can see you as what we both need. JUST a best friend. That’s what we were, then we wanted to be together.

Wrong timing, wrong timing. If I was ready you probably would have realized later down the line that you didn’t want a relationship. You say that’s not it, but I can guarantee it is. You think I would have changed my mind like I do with everything else in life. But I only change it because I’m not sure to begin with. Once I was sure I was in love with you and wanted to be with you, then it would have stayed that way forever until you became a different person or left me. 

I will always love you and you will always hold a place in my heart. But it’s obvious we can never work out. I hope one day I can see you and hang out with you and only feel for you as a friend. But I’m afraid that as long as you are in the world I cannot be around. With us, we get crazy when we’re around each other. We tried only being friends and it fails every time. What makes you think we can try to be friends again? It may have to be all or nothing. Since it can’t be all, there’s only one option left.

I am trying my hardest to get over you. I stopped looking at your Facebook, stopped talking to you, started trying to talk to other guys just to lose my feelings for you. And then I looked at your Facebook again, texted you, answered your calls, and forgot about those guys. Not completely though.

God is helping my progress. One day I will help thousands of broken-hearted women. A prophet told me when I was a little child. I would be a minister and help the broken-hearted. I am such a hopeless romantic and I learn from my heartbreak very well. God didn’t intend for me to get hurt but he is using this experience so one day I can help other women. As long as I stay in church, put God in my heart instead and keep looking forward to my future, I WILL get over you. I’m not accepting anything less.

I’m sorry this has to be this way. But you have already moved on and you so bluntly told me you stopped liking me and didn’t want to be with me. So that will help me get over you. This pain in my heart from losing love is being replaced with God’s never ending love. And my thoughts of a future with you are being replaced with thoughts of a future in Him. It truly is the only way to be happy. I hope you realize that one day. I will keep praying for you and giving you guidance. I will try my hardest because I care that much. I’m glad I am still very important in your life. I really do love you.

Love, Bee.

This is how God spoke to me through this verse. It may not be “the correct meaning” but it is for me.

1 Samuel 2:4

“The bows of the warriors are broken, but those who stumbled are armed with strength.”

A lot of people will interpret this verse differently. But I truly believe that God has many meanings for verses. My meaning goes like this. Those who think they are mighty and strong really won’t get anywhere. They rely on something that is destined to fail. Like the bow. They don’t rely on their own strength that God would help them find. But those who stumble know they aren’t perfect. They KNOW they need God to help them.

The word stumble means: To trip or momentarily lose one’s balance; almost fall. This doesn’t say to fall down. It also doesn’t mean to give up and stop in your tracks. When you walk on a sidewalk and trip on a crack, you don’t just stand there. I don’t know of any person who would just decide to never walk on a sidewalk again. When you go through the trials that God puts in front of you, you will NEVER get any better unless you keep going. Life is a non-stop sidewalk with many cracks. You have to keep going on that path that God is leading you on because the places you go will only get better. The cracks may be so big you don’t think you can get to the other side or they may be so small that it isn’t even a problem. But God promised you that you can get through them. With this verse:

Matthew 19:26

“Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

You don’t ever have to be alone! Turn to God and put your complete faith in him and he will guide you every step of the way. Which brings me back to the first verse. The ones who are weak and stumble all the time, only get better by persevering through it. But only through God. Nothing else in this world can make you stronger than you are but God. You can’t put your faith in a single bow. Because you will fall down. You won’t stumble and keep going like those who follow God completely. And here’s the reason why. I’ll say it again. Jesus said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Nothing of this world created by man will ever help you. You may think that it’s the best thing that could ever happen to you for a short time, but unlike God it WILL fail you.

Hebrews 13:5

“Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you;  never will I forsake you.” (This also means to be free from the riches of the world)

God is the answer. Don’t be afraid to admit you are weak and that you need God. Your pride will only fail you. God never will. This is something I have been learning. To trust God.

These are the steps that always happen:

1) I am in complete denial. I am super depressed but I won’t accept what has happened. So I cry. I cry harder than I ever have. I have never been this hurt.

2) When I can’t stand the feeling of being left alone I start to wish I wasn’t alive.

3) I become so desperate that what I want doesn’t matter anymore. I decide that it doesn’t matter what will happen because all I want is to stop feeling this depression and sorrow that suddenly happened.

4) I beg to God that only he can help me. I tell him that even though I may be hurt even more, I COMPLETELY (not half-heartedly) give my situation and my life up to God. I start praying and asking him to save me.

5) God speaks to me. He gives me the answers I need and places peace in my heart.

6) I am still in denial of what he has told me but I pray more and he helps.

7) I finally accept it. I’m still depressed. I’m not happy at all but I KNOW that God is doing what is best for me.

8) I Grieve. I cry my heart out because of the thought of losing what I had or not getting what I wanted. I understand why it must be this way but I still hurt. This grieving process will last years. But everyday I grieve and accept what I need to, God is healing me.

I JUST accepted today what I needed to. I am still asking God for an answer about how I should go about it. And if God tells me I have to let go, in order to heal, then I will ask God for the strength to go through this. The important thing to remember while grieving is to never give up on God. Because he has already proved many times that He is the answer.

The point of this is to show you that you NEED GOD. Once you depend on something else for your happiness you’re in trouble. Because it will fail you. You need him from the beginning. He gives you what you need. Without him, it wouldn’t have ever happened. God gave me Christian. God helped our relationship grow. God took him away for a reason and I needed God to help me understand why. And I need God to comfort me in my pain. Now I will only depend on God to give me exactly what I need. I promise you He will always come through. That’s one promise that will never be broken. The only one you should listen to.

I guess I’ll start with a few verses.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Philippians 4:6

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

These two verses are ones I wish I had learned about before I had to go through everything I have went through. I fought it all the way but I trusted God and asked for an answer. He gave me the answer. I knew that the troubles you have to go through will make you stronger but I didn’t realize how much they really make you to be who you are. I didn’t realize that God put you exactly where you need to be and made you feel a certain way towards a person or a situation for a reason.

I’m going to be honest. Christian and I had a lot of ups and downs lately. There was a lot of confusion on both parts. But yesterday we came to realize that God needs us to be apart. God set up every part of Christian’s future that He knew Christian needed and yesterday it all came together. It finally makes sense why certain things were happening to Christian. Why he was feeling this way about me. Why we both knew we can’t be together right now. He has to leave. It’s what God wants. I wish I could explain the feeling to you of how in awe we were when we found out exactly why every little thing was happening in our lives. We both understand why certain bad things needed to happen to us. It caused us to not have a choice in what we do and take the path that we are on. I know how it feels when you think everything is falling apart but you are still trying to trust God with everything you have. You feel like giving up and then you realize that not everything is falling apart.

Like with me. My aunt’s landlord won’t let me live with her. So the only other option is with my brother. And I now know that there is a reason for that. Christian now knows that he needed to be at where he works now to get where he will work in a few weeks and it’s exactly what God wanted. He applied at SO many places and Dutch Country is the only one that called him back including this really big job. Which was impossible to take at the time but he can now because of the money from this job that he needed to get started on that job. There is a reason why he lives 2 minutes driving right from Dutch Country. I’m not trying to tell his life story. xD I’m just trying to explain how everything good and bad happens to you for a reason. And it’s all God. So I am sad that Christian and I aren’t together but he is still my best friend. It’s hard for me to think of this and to think of him leaving but for some reason I am at complete peace because I know that everything is happening how it’s supposed to. I trusted in God. And he came through with an answer.

I’m not sure why I have to live with my brother. Or why I didn’t graduate and have to take an at-home computer program but it’s what God wants. And now I finally understand. I guess this is my testimony/lesson to other people. That every single bad and good thing happens for His reason. God will ALWAYS do what is best for you and prepare you for what needs to happen. As long as you pray to God and trust Him, He will give you an answer.

The two verses up at the top are exactly what is happening. God has a plan for every one of us. God gave me hope when I asked for it and he is preparing our future for what is best to fit us.

The second verse had to do with me. I had anxiety every day and finally I woke up today in peace. Because I finally put it in God’s hands. I didn’t want to. I knew Christian and I would be breaking up that night. I didn’t know what to do so I prayed to God. And he told me that Christian would always be in my life. I don’t know in what way right now but whatever happens I have a feeling I will be alright with it. I told God that I trust him. I cried and cried and even though I HATED to admit that Christian and I couldn’t be together right now, I told God that I will accept whatever He decides to do. And because of that, God gave me the understanding of why it had to happen. He gave me the peace to accept it and gave me the strength to… only cry a little bit. (: I still don’t know my path. I will have to figure that out or maybe I never will but God won’t let me down anyway. I love God. I will never be able to thank him enough for these trials. They are all for His reasons.

God has been on my mind a lot and pushing me to share my story. It’s not really a testimony but more a story of having faith in God.

I was at Christian Harbor Church a few months ago and there was a prayer line. The line was terribly long and I told myself I would go up after it got shorter. But I was just being stubborn and I didn’t want to. After the last few people were left I finally decided to go up. My mind was filled with so much doubt. This is a big problem of mine. I doubt everything I have ever been blessed with. I doubt what I can do. I doubt other people. And sometimes I even doubt God. To be honest, I used to doubt him a lot. 

There was this woman praying for the people walking through the prayer line. I was watching her pray. She would close her eyes, fold her hands and pray to God for a prophecy. Immediately I starting doubting her. I was thinking things like, “She doesn’t know what she is doing.” “She is just pretending to say things to these people just so she looks good.”

And I was still doubting her when I walked by her. She closed her eyes, folded her hands and prayed to God.

When she opened her eyes she laid her hands on me she started telling me what God told her. She told me exactly what I needed to know. It wasn’t some used information that could be given to anyone. It was something that I was personally going through that no one knew about but God. My hands were already lifted. I started crying and shaking and apologizing to God for doubting him. I passed through the line and I was so filled with God’s love that I started laughing. I wanted to scream and dance and cry and laugh all at the same time.

If you have never been filled with the holy ghost I can’t even begin to explain how wonderful it is. It’s the best feeling in the world and I would never get tired of it. But I’m writing this because I know someone out there is troubled and they don’t think God will come through. I promise you, He will. There is no need to doubt him. He honestly does tell others things about your life, so they can talk to you about it. They’re speaking to you from God.

God once spoke to someone I look up to in the church. She came down after singing the songs and told me that God told her I have a great voice and I should basically put it to good use. She never heard me sing or knew I wanted to do that with my life.  I want to sing more than anything in the church but I’m working on my confidence level. The point is to never doubt God. Because now I am finally happy even when horrbile things are happening to me. God tested me. God will test every one of you. Maybe He is now. Never lose faith in him.

Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.” Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears, ” Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!” Mk 9.23-24

I used to be so terrified of change. But after everything in my life changed, I have become so comfortable with it. I look forward to going to new places, meeting new people, going through completely new experiences. Your life is going to change no matter what you do to try and stop it. So instead of loathing it and being depressed when it does come, try and embrace it. Life gets so boring. Now, I purposefully change. And that makes me happy.