God has been on my mind a lot and pushing me to share my story. It’s not really a testimony but more a story of having faith in God.

I was at Christian Harbor Church a few months ago and there was a prayer line. The line was terribly long and I told myself I would go up after it got shorter. But I was just being stubborn and I didn’t want to. After the last few people were left I finally decided to go up. My mind was filled with so much doubt. This is a big problem of mine. I doubt everything I have ever been blessed with. I doubt what I can do. I doubt other people. And sometimes I even doubt God. To be honest, I used to doubt him a lot. 

There was this woman praying for the people walking through the prayer line. I was watching her pray. She would close her eyes, fold her hands and pray to God for a prophecy. Immediately I starting doubting her. I was thinking things like, “She doesn’t know what she is doing.” “She is just pretending to say things to these people just so she looks good.”

And I was still doubting her when I walked by her. She closed her eyes, folded her hands and prayed to God.

When she opened her eyes she laid her hands on me she started telling me what God told her. She told me exactly what I needed to know. It wasn’t some used information that could be given to anyone. It was something that I was personally going through that no one knew about but God. My hands were already lifted. I started crying and shaking and apologizing to God for doubting him. I passed through the line and I was so filled with God’s love that I started laughing. I wanted to scream and dance and cry and laugh all at the same time.

If you have never been filled with the holy ghost I can’t even begin to explain how wonderful it is. It’s the best feeling in the world and I would never get tired of it. But I’m writing this because I know someone out there is troubled and they don’t think God will come through. I promise you, He will. There is no need to doubt him. He honestly does tell others things about your life, so they can talk to you about it. They’re speaking to you from God.

God once spoke to someone I look up to in the church. She came down after singing the songs and told me that God told her I have a great voice and I should basically put it to good use. She never heard me sing or knew I wanted to do that with my life.  I want to sing more than anything in the church but I’m working on my confidence level. The point is to never doubt God. Because now I am finally happy even when horrbile things are happening to me. God tested me. God will test every one of you. Maybe He is now. Never lose faith in him.

Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.” Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears, ” Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!” Mk 9.23-24