I guess I’ll start with a few verses.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Philippians 4:6

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

These two verses are ones I wish I had learned about before I had to go through everything I have went through. I fought it all the way but I trusted God and asked for an answer. He gave me the answer. I knew that the troubles you have to go through will make you stronger but I didn’t realize how much they really make you to be who you are. I didn’t realize that God put you exactly where you need to be and made you feel a certain way towards a person or a situation for a reason.

I’m going to be honest. Christian and I had a lot of ups and downs lately. There was a lot of confusion on both parts. But yesterday we came to realize that God needs us to be apart. God set up every part of Christian’s future that He knew Christian needed and yesterday it all came together. It finally makes sense why certain things were happening to Christian. Why he was feeling this way about me. Why we both knew we can’t be together right now. He has to leave. It’s what God wants. I wish I could explain the feeling to you of how in awe we were when we found out exactly why every little thing was happening in our lives. We both understand why certain bad things needed to happen to us. It caused us to not have a choice in what we do and take the path that we are on. I know how it feels when you think everything is falling apart but you are still trying to trust God with everything you have. You feel like giving up and then you realize that not everything is falling apart.

Like with me. My aunt’s landlord won’t let me live with her. So the only other option is with my brother. And I now know that there is a reason for that. Christian now knows that he needed to be at where he works now to get where he will work in a few weeks and it’s exactly what God wanted. He applied at SO many places and Dutch Country is the only one that called him back including this really big job. Which was impossible to take at the time but he can now because of the money from this job that he needed to get started on that job. There is a reason why he lives 2 minutes driving right from Dutch Country. I’m not trying to tell his life story. xD I’m just trying to explain how everything good and bad happens to you for a reason. And it’s all God. So I am sad that Christian and I aren’t together but he is still my best friend. It’s hard for me to think of this and to think of him leaving but for some reason I am at complete peace because I know that everything is happening how it’s supposed to. I trusted in God. And he came through with an answer.

I’m not sure why I have to live with my brother. Or why I didn’t graduate and have to take an at-home computer program but it’s what God wants. And now I finally understand. I guess this is my testimony/lesson to other people. That every single bad and good thing happens for His reason. God will ALWAYS do what is best for you and prepare you for what needs to happen. As long as you pray to God and trust Him, He will give you an answer.

The two verses up at the top are exactly what is happening. God has a plan for every one of us. God gave me hope when I asked for it and he is preparing our future for what is best to fit us.

The second verse had to do with me. I had anxiety every day and finally I woke up today in peace. Because I finally put it in God’s hands. I didn’t want to. I knew Christian and I would be breaking up that night. I didn’t know what to do so I prayed to God. And he told me that Christian would always be in my life. I don’t know in what way right now but whatever happens I have a feeling I will be alright with it. I told God that I trust him. I cried and cried and even though I HATED to admit that Christian and I couldn’t be together right now, I told God that I will accept whatever He decides to do. And because of that, God gave me the understanding of why it had to happen. He gave me the peace to accept it and gave me the strength to… only cry a little bit. (: I still don’t know my path. I will have to figure that out or maybe I never will but God won’t let me down anyway. I love God. I will never be able to thank him enough for these trials. They are all for His reasons.