This is how God spoke to me through this verse. It may not be “the correct meaning” but it is for me.

1 Samuel 2:4

“The bows of the warriors are broken, but those who stumbled are armed with strength.”

A lot of people will interpret this verse differently. But I truly believe that God has many meanings for verses. My meaning goes like this. Those who think they are mighty and strong really won’t get anywhere. They rely on something that is destined to fail. Like the bow. They don’t rely on their own strength that God would help them find. But those who stumble know they aren’t perfect. They KNOW they need God to help them.

The word stumble means: To trip or momentarily lose one’s balance; almost fall. This doesn’t say to fall down. It also doesn’t mean to give up and stop in your tracks. When you walk on a sidewalk and trip on a crack, you don’t just stand there. I don’t know of any person who would just decide to never walk on a sidewalk again. When you go through the trials that God puts in front of you, you will NEVER get any better unless you keep going. Life is a non-stop sidewalk with many cracks. You have to keep going on that path that God is leading you on because the places you go will only get better. The cracks may be so big you don’t think you can get to the other side or they may be so small that it isn’t even a problem. But God promised you that you can get through them. With this verse:

Matthew 19:26

“Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

You don’t ever have to be alone! Turn to God and put your complete faith in him and he will guide you every step of the way. Which brings me back to the first verse. The ones who are weak and stumble all the time, only get better by persevering through it. But only through God. Nothing else in this world can make you stronger than you are but God. You can’t put your faith in a single bow. Because you will fall down. You won’t stumble and keep going like those who follow God completely. And here’s the reason why. I’ll say it again. Jesus said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Nothing of this world created by man will ever help you. You may think that it’s the best thing that could ever happen to you for a short time, but unlike God it WILL fail you.

Hebrews 13:5

“Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you;  never will I forsake you.” (This also means to be free from the riches of the world)

God is the answer. Don’t be afraid to admit you are weak and that you need God. Your pride will only fail you. God never will. This is something I have been learning. To trust God.

These are the steps that always happen:

1) I am in complete denial. I am super depressed but I won’t accept what has happened. So I cry. I cry harder than I ever have. I have never been this hurt.

2) When I can’t stand the feeling of being left alone I start to wish I wasn’t alive.

3) I become so desperate that what I want doesn’t matter anymore. I decide that it doesn’t matter what will happen because all I want is to stop feeling this depression and sorrow that suddenly happened.

4) I beg to God that only he can help me. I tell him that even though I may be hurt even more, I COMPLETELY (not half-heartedly) give my situation and my life up to God. I start praying and asking him to save me.

5) God speaks to me. He gives me the answers I need and places peace in my heart.

6) I am still in denial of what he has told me but I pray more and he helps.

7) I finally accept it. I’m still depressed. I’m not happy at all but I KNOW that God is doing what is best for me.

8) I Grieve. I cry my heart out because of the thought of losing what I had or not getting what I wanted. I understand why it must be this way but I still hurt. This grieving process will last years. But everyday I grieve and accept what I need to, God is healing me.

I JUST accepted today what I needed to. I am still asking God for an answer about how I should go about it. And if God tells me I have to let go, in order to heal, then I will ask God for the strength to go through this. The important thing to remember while grieving is to never give up on God. Because he has already proved many times that He is the answer.

The point of this is to show you that you NEED GOD. Once you depend on something else for your happiness you’re in trouble. Because it will fail you. You need him from the beginning. He gives you what you need. Without him, it wouldn’t have ever happened. God gave me Christian. God helped our relationship grow. God took him away for a reason and I needed God to help me understand why. And I need God to comfort me in my pain. Now I will only depend on God to give me exactly what I need. I promise you He will always come through. That’s one promise that will never be broken. The only one you should listen to.